My due date is in 3 days.
I should be preparing for birth, not preparing for more TTC.
More waiting. I can now plan 5 weeks out. It is the most I can ever plan. If thus cycle works, 5 weeks from now I will be too sick to leave the house. If not, then it can plan the next 5 weeks.
It’s hard to live you life in five week increments. My inlaws want to know when is a good time to come visit this summer. If we will visit them next winter. It’s not in the next 5 weeks, so I don’t know.
I wanted to have hope for new life to carry me through this incredibly hard month. Instead, more disappointment. More lost possibilities. More lost time. More waiting.