When Sam was a newborn it was easy to imagine the clock had been reset. It was easy to look at him and think that the past year had been a dream and that Noah was a tiny, healthy baby.
Now Sam is almost 5 months. He is a happy wiggly baby. I have no idea what Noah would have been like at this age. He is always a tiny baby to me, even though had he lived he would be 17 months. The same age Owen was when we moved here. He would be approaching the age Owen was during my pregnancy with Noah.
I will always wonder who he would have been.