3DPO again.  I have a appointment tomorrow to talk to my OB about fertility meds, and an appointment with an RE a week after that incase my OB doesn’t do meds. With O we did 2 cycles of Femara.  I now that is NOTHING in the IF world, but still, that’s out history.  With Noah […]

Mixed messages

I am so shaken by this.  I don’t know someone could do something that is comforting and hurtful at the same time. I hosted a sewing circle in honor of Noah today for Teeny Tears bereavement diapers. I sent out e-mails to our very large mom’s group, and was really happy with the turn out. […]

Three Months

Dear Noah, Today is 3 months since your stillbirthday.  I still miss you and think about you every day.  It seems impossible that a quarter of a year has gone by without you.  A month from today you will have been gone as long as you were alive.  It seems crazy.  Impossible. I get flashes. […]

“Here is one of the worst things about having someone you love die: It happens again every single morning” Anna Quindlen

Today was a day meant to kick me in the teeth. It’s CD2. I spent most of yesterday incredibly drugged due to the awful cramps. My normal 1/2 a Tylenol with codeine? Not cutting it. The I woke up this morning having overflowed my Diva Cup and bled all over my pajamas. Awesome. Then this […]