I have a love/hate relationship with Timehop. It often makes me sad, but I wouldn’t trade the photos, the memories, and the emotions for anything. This picture showed up this week. I remember the trip, and the picture all too clearly. What always strikes me with this photo is how I know others see […]
Just when you think you have the hang of grief, it surprises you. In the past October has been a big struggle for me from the 1st through Noah’s birthday on the 19th. And then it gets easier. I held it together pretty well in early October this year. I thought I was in the […]
A mom I see at my son’s dance class had a baby 2 weeks ago. Despite the fact that I had confirmed with the grandma the week before that everything went fine, when she showed up to dance on Thursday without the baby, my heart dropped. Rather than wondering where the baby was, my first […]
The first day of school in our town was last week. Owen started his last year of preschool. If Noah had lived, he would be the same age that Owen was when he started preschool. Owen’s school is incredibly full. There are wait lists for every class but one. The one that Noah […]
I feel Sam move all the time now. I never felt Noah move this much. I hardly felt him move at all. Part of it was his anterior placenta. Was another part because he had so much brain damage, it was hard for him to move? I am 18w1d. That’s how far we were when […]
Tomorrow we have the first of 3 ultrasounds to look at the brain. To find out whether or not this baby has a chance at life. I’ve been counting down, but now I’m afraid to know. As long as I don’t know there is the possibility that he is ok.