IUI #2

June 14, 2014 by Missing Noah

I’ve spent most of the week pretty angry. We had IUI #2 on Sunday and it was not a good experience. I got my positive OPK on CD13, so that was a good sign, but I had been having pain in my left ovary since Friday, and I was really worried about too many follicles. […]

Done with Clomid… (for now)

June 2, 2014 by Missing Noah

I took my last clomid last night. The emotional side effects weren’t as bad as I was afraid of, but the pysical were more than I was expecting. I’ve heard that the side effects get worse with each clomid cycle. I wanted to record my side effects so that I can review before next time […]

It’s June again

June 2, 2014 by Missing Noah

It’s June again. Last year I was on CD3 of the cycle I got pregnant with Noah. I wasn’t expecting much – I’d only gotten my cycle back in March, and after it took so long with O and meds, I figured it would take a while. I ovulated on CD20 which was June 18th […]

Seven months

May 20, 2014 by Missing Noah

7 months. How is that even possible? The past month has been so wrapped up in infertility, and the miscarriage. The IUI was on April 16th. Six month from our last day home with Noah. This whole month has been about betas and tests and plans. It feels like my focus is split. This was […]

What’s next?

May 6, 2014 by Missing Noah

I am exhausted. After getting my lower betas on Saturday I made a decision some may find strange – I was going to continue the progesterone for one more night. Not because I thought there was hope. But because I wanted another day to process. I also thought I might be better off if CD1 […]

It went down

May 4, 2014 by Missing Noah

We lost another baby. We knew that these were the odds, but I thought somehow we’d beat them. Some days I wonder if we will ever get a rainbow.

The night before

May 3, 2014 by Missing Noah

Our next beta will be tomorrow. I told the doctor I would get the results myself, and that I wanted D to be here if they are bad. I’m preparing myself for this to be over. I have been clinging to hope. But I took a pregnancy test this afternoon. The only brand that has […]

The little beta that could?

May 2, 2014 by Missing Noah

Well it went up. But not as much as I hoped. Monday 1pm – HCG- 3, Progesterone – 3 Tuesday 10am – HCG – 4 Thursday 10am – HCG – 6, Progesterone – 6.8 On both Monday and Tuesday I actually got to talk to Dr. C and he said he same thing “I don’t […]

I’m in beta hell.

April 30, 2014 by Missing Noah

Beta hell is quite the roller coaster. You’re pregnant-ish. Didn’t know that was possible huh? It all started Monday. I saw a faint line on a Wondfo pregnancy test. But not on anything else. So I called and asked for a beta. I was able to go in at 1. I thought I saw some […]

RE Update

April 23, 2014 by Missing Noah

So we had our most recent RE appointment last Wednesday. I was supposed to have an HSG and a hyst to check out my uterus and tubes. They only want to do it before ovulation because they shoot water and bubbles in and they don’t want to disrupt an egg. So they only do it […]