Today we did acts of kindness for Noah. And we asked others to join us. We went for a beautiful hike to the waterfall. We had dinner, and cake, and tried to explain to Sam who all of this was for. Owen gets it in a way that I wonder if Sam ever will. At […]
I have a love/hate relationship with Timehop. It often makes me sad, but I wouldn’t trade the photos, the memories, and the emotions for anything. This picture showed up this week. I remember the trip, and the picture all too clearly. What always strikes me with this photo is how I know others see […]
Two years old. It’s incredible. I love you so much. My sweet rainbow baby.
Yesterday Owen told Sam that he was “the best brother ever!” It was wonderful, and sweet, and heartbreaking. He never got the chance to play with and snuggle his first brother. I have a million pictures of Owen and Sam. Owen loves getting their picture taken together. This is the only picture we have […]
Since starting preschool when I was newly pregnant with Sam, Owen has been asked to bring in a family picture three times. I never know what to send. There is no complete family picture. The closest I can get is one like this, that includes Noah’s Molly Bear. Owen was asked to decorate […]
Holidays. Even when you don’t think they will, they get you. I expected to be nervous about Sam today. After all, with previous due dates of mid November and mid March and never having made it to Halloween still pregnant, who wouldn’t be a little superstitious? And yes, I had nightmares all last night about […]
I just read this post from the round up. And this quote stuck with me. “She said something that stuck with me, “Clare, a friend just told me that I am grieving publicly and that doing so, in the current world, is a rare rare thing.”” I think public grieving is becoming more common, at […]
“I just have one.” Those words came out of my mouth today and I instantly wanted them back. It happens occasionally. Usually when I have someone assuming that two children that are physically present are both mine and I correct them. But then it always feels wrong. Sure, only one of the two kids you […]
Dear Noah, It’s hard to believe it’s been 6 months. 6 months since we were able to hold you, see you, kiss you, touch you. Six months ago was the only day. The day we said hello and good bye. We are visiting your grandma (the one you got to meet) this weekend. Walking around […]
There is so mich to write about. I’m 4DPO, and getting sick. Courtesy of O. We have been cooped up in the house with a sick toddler since Saturday. He seemed fine all morning, running around like a crazy thing. D agreed to take him to the park, and he was so excited. Then they […]
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